April 24, 2008
I am incredibly tired. Last night I began drinking at 3am and managed to be completely smashed by 4am. I met up with Jakub to give him a book that Tao had signed for him. I didn’t sleep much. I felt awful all day. Jakub was kind enough to allow me to just lie around his apartment all day while he occasionally did work or watched youtube videos. Around 6pm he ordered us dinner. I began to get very nervous around then. I was filled with anxiety of not being good enough for him. I would be more articulate but I am having a hard time keeping my thoughts coherent tonight. I feel like I should go to bed shortly. I will say this- as soon as I got home and had some time to myself I felt better.